The Loneliest Journey – Part 2

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Do you know who you are?

Identity is not always clear and concise. Who we are and who we think we are can change over time. It may take years but can also occur over a few minutes, especially if we allow circumstances to dictate things. How we respond to things is often due to who we are but can also determine who we become.

Last Sunday morning, Steve Atkins started a series on Ephesians. He began the series by demonstrating how Paul began by defining clearly who he was and who he was writing to. Paul is an apostle of Jesus chosen by God. The individuals he is writing to are called saints, holy people, and faithful followers. Paul identifies himself and the Ephesians as blessed, loved, and chosen by God. There can be no doubt who anyone is, and as a result what they can expect or what is expected of them.

I started chemo today. It’s the next step on a journey that I would like to have avoided. But I’m here nonetheless.

It is a bit clearer what is happening. I have a Stage 2 Grade 3a/3b follicular cell Non Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. There is no organ involvement and my bone marrow is clear. Because of the mixed grade it’s not totally clear what form of chemotherapy is best but consensus is to go with a combination of chemo and immunological agents called R-CHOP. I’ll be getting a day of treatment every three weeks for just over four months. There’s the potential for a bunch of different side effects but only time will tell. Right now I feel fine.

I also feel assured as to who I am and who I am not. I am not a cancer victim. This is not denial. This is not positive thinking. This is just knowing the truth. I know that God has plans for me, that He is in control, and that because of Him and His righteousness I am counted along with the Ephesians. Not through anything I have done but because of Christ.

That means I am a child of God. I have been adopted into His Kingdom. I am His. And that means even though I am afflicted by cancer, I am not defeated. I am not crushed, not in despair and not abandoned. I can have complete peace knowing without any doubt that Jesus is with me and will never leave me or forsake me.

And that makes this whole journey a lot less lonely.

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4 Responses to The Loneliest Journey – Part 2

  1. Anne Perdow says:

    Your positive and prayerful attitude makes a difference. My husband remained upbeat and now he is a cancer survivor. You can do this.

  2. I’m so glad you’re posting these details, though this will be a tough battle for you to face. We wish you much courage. I’m sure it isn’t easy being on the other side of the stethoscope.

  3. I just became aware of your current challenge and I’m sorry to hear it, but standing with you in faith that nothing happens to us that God is not in control of. May He grant you continued strength and peace.

  4. Jennifer warburton says:

    I just became aware of your circumstance. This is definitely one of the toughest battles anyone could face, and I admire your positive attitude. My family and I will be praying for you for a speedy recovery.

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